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satanX15

My insanity, is your delusion.
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 Hey, well um yeah. I've got no excuses. I can't believe it's been over a year since I wrote and entry. Sorry I've been gone so long, I've been on and off keeping myself busy and otherwise occupied. ^^

 So lets see, where to start. Work I guess. In between jobs AGAIN at the moment. Had afew different ones throughout the last year. Was working at this Life Skills program that teaches you life and employ-ability skills and help you search and apply for jobs for afew months which was nice, pretty laid back most days, interesting coworkers would be putting it mildly. :p I was pretty excited to be the first in the group to have been hired for a job as a security guard. I was even more excited because it was with a company I had been trying to get with for years. While all the training and experience was nice, my excitement was short lived. Despite being promised from the very beginning that I'd have full time hours, I was only getting two 5 hour shifts a week, and after hearing that our hours were going to be getting cut even more I decided to get searching again. Saw that my local Walmart was looking for people for "Reno Crew" and Night stockers. Got a call afew days later asking me to come in for an interview and got hired. I had originally intended to stay as a security guard and work afew shifts here and there, but turns out my boss wasn't too thrilled that I was looking for more work so he let me go the very next day. Oh well, I had a better paying job and more hours starting the next week so I was content. I won't lie, a number of things you hear about working for Walmart are true, but others are greatly exaggerated. For the most part, working at Walmart was actually enjoyable, mainly due to my coworkers, but it still wasn't so bad until my 3 month probation was coming to an end and despite being told I was one of the hardest and best workers there they decided to let me go with no warning. You can imagine I wasn't too please. Still not but I have to move on and keep looking for a job that I can actually stay at for more than afew months. Till then, it's stretching my budget as thin as I can and having people tell me I should get this and that and tell them to fuck off constantly again. :p

Wow. Work wise 2014 was quite the year. Well, lets get the inevitable "love-life" shit out of the way. By that you can easily guess, yeah I'm still single finding women to be fickle minded creatures. :p Though, I've got to say, I kind of feel like I might have had my heartbroken all over again. See, for a while there I was actually over my ex and we were back to being friends. But after a bit I started to redevelop some feelings for her. Feeling a bit more confident I decided I wasn't going to beat around the bush and let it slip away this time and was going to ask her out the next time I got the chance. Just so happened a chance presented itself not long after. She was graduating from her upgrading classes and invited me to the graduation. So after I got off work I stopped in bought afew flowers that were her favorite color and went to go see her. It was kind of awkward giving them to her as I had expected, but I could see she was really happy about it. This all sounds like it's going well to you? Yeah that's what I though until not even a minute later I walk into the kitchen to find her new boyfriend sitting at the table... Words cannot express how much I wanted to turn around and walk out that door. But I decided to stay. Poor choice. Yeah he left after about 10 minutes, yeah we all shared a couple laughs, but for the rest of the evening I couldn't help but feel like shit. I must have gone through half a pack of smokes that night. Thankfully it was payday weekend and I had a bottle of rum in the freezer. I dropped contact with her for a while after that, drop in on her from time to time to see how she's doing. Aside from that I just don't see a reason to put myself through it anymore. So long as she's happy, fine. I'm here if she needs me but aside from that she's got him, he can deal with it all now.

Now that all that's out of the way. ^^ It's getting pretty late/early 7am to be exact, and the snowplows have finally gone away so I can get some sleep now. I'll try to continue to be more active on here rather than upload something every couple months and more frequently update this thing rather than yearly.
Right well, till then as Monty always said "Keep Moving Forward".
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LONG DUE UPDATE

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Okay, so it's been a long time since I've updated this and I suppose I should. So yeah... Lots happened since I last updated this. Uh where to start. Well for starters I had a job for a couple of months. Was working at Domino's as a pizza cook. Unfortunately that got cut short because my boss didn't feel like I was fast enough. I didn't bother to argue mainly because I was only get about 15 hours a week. Which for someone living on their own isn't enough to live on.

That aside, I met a nice girl over the summer, which after a month we started dating. And for once in a while, I was actually happy. Though, like all my relationships there was something that threw a wrench into it. See she comes from a Baptist Christian family, which are pretty strict about their beliefs  and all that shit. Mind you, I was raised partially christian, but I decided to leave that all behind me a long time ago, BUT, I still respected their beliefs. Though annoyingly it seems her pastor did not share that same respect. Anyway, she lost her father, the same as how I lost my mother. With her father gone her pastor stepped in to play the role of "surrogate/adopted father" which in all fairness I respect. BUT, and here comes where I start ranting about how much of a bigot he is. He never liked me from day one. Despite never meeting me until about a month later. His opinion of me before anything else was that I'm an alcoholic, drug addict, that will do nothing but ruin her life... Knew so much about me that I didn't know about myself. Anyway, through out our relationship he caused alot of drama, and unneeded stress. Her over bearing and controlling mother didn't really help either. My main argument is that  a 22 year old woman  should be able to decide and say what she's going to do. Nope. She had to be home every night at 11. Even on weekends when we didn't work. She couldn't even stay the night without her mother throwing a hissy fit. Huh... Anyway, my point is in the nearly 4 months we were together she dumped me 3 times (third being most recent/current) because she doesn't want to deal with the stress of being pressured by her surrogate/church family about dating a non-christian. Aside from all that we were happy... We loved each other and made sure the other knew it... Ugh. Okay I'm making myself depressed. MOVING ON.

Seeing as this IS an "art" site and I use that loosely considering half the content of this site, I figure that should be a topic to include. :p I haven't really had much motivation to do much else aside from the occasional posters/edit. Which I'm actually kind of proud of. Anyway, I've had alot of new ideas to do with my OC's and afew other things that would be nice for fan-arts. But again it's a matter of motivation, and that I need to start practicing creating drawings from scratch. I'm kind of tired of using other drawings as a base and editing them into my own. Anyway, hopefully in between my job hunting, and everything else that seems to require my attention.

*Bonus Subject!*
So, I'm a HUGE fan of the Assassin's Creed series. I have every game for the consoles and with the latest one I pre-ordered ACIV: Black Flag, which after paying off, I decided, why the fuck not. Let's splurge a little and up my pre-order. So I got the limited edition, and fucking LOVE IT!
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DeviantHEART

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First of all I should apologize for not being very active minus afew comments and fav's here and there, but I've been kind of busy and just not really in an artistic mood recently. For the past few months I had let some dumbass stay with me because I felt bad for him, being pretty much homeless in the middle of winter, so I figured I'd let him stay for a bit and get on his feet... Yeah that didn't happen. Oh well finally kicked him out and I'm back to living alone! xD

Now for what I had intended this to be about. Am I the only one hoping this DeviantHEART thing is another one of our favorite art site's April Fools jokes? I'll be honest. For shits n' giggles I went through the sign-up process and actually got paired with someone.
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Manga Coloring

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So I've been thinking about doing a full chapter Manga coloring when the next chapters of Bleach and Naruto come out. And depending on how well those go, I may consider doing more of them.
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Si I randomly checked me Drawings folder that became corrupted a few months ago and magically it started working. Meaning I can access all my finished, current, and future projects! xD
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